This is first entry in a very very long while, and time has taken its toll on familiar faces. To be perfectly honest I'm not even sure what I should post about. My apprehension is mainly due to the sad realization that no one is going to read this, although that is probably not bad thing considering I'm so out of practice writing that eyes will surely begin to bleed after perusing this post. ...but what the hell!
So I am sitting in the upstairs loft on niflty little cluster home on the southwest side of Las Vegas. My room is empty save for a computer against the wall and two beautiful Dachshunds sleeping at my feet. My bonita is at the store shopping for dinner and I'm trying to pass the time until we get ready for sleep.
Bonita and I have been together for nearly two years and while we have our arguments from time to time, she is a wonderful woman and I'm a lucky man to have found her. She vewry much wants to marry me - and we will when the time is right.
I currently work for the government in the area of aviation security and I enjoy my job. I'm not always the best at what I do, but I'm a helleva lot better at it than many others. I supervisor 40-60 employees everyday, meaning I listen to 40 different sets of problems, complaints, and dramas.
Life is good.
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I seem to have overlooked the fact that everyone and everything in the world is dead. Every single thought throughout human history is but a stinky belch of intestinal gas squeezed from the putrid decayed flesh of a heaping pile set aside for the rest of the universe to avoid.Good bye Pandora - you will be missed.
Anyway it was a very long and interesting day.
What the fuck are these politicians thinking about? It certainly isn't the people who elected them to office. Again they attempt to pass a piece of legislation that had absolutely no hope in doing anything for anyone. If you want to secure a border you go down there with guns and dogs and you shoot anyone who does not obey your orders. Of course this is the machiavelli way of dealing with the situation and would be looked down upon by too many people who don't live here in this country so why the hell do we really care? Just forget about the problem and eventually it will work itself out with violence and bloodshed.
Now violence and blood shed seem to be the best way for people in this world to get things done nowadays. Well to be completely honest we have been doing it for centuries and millennium so why should we stop now. No one ever won a war with a kind word, no one ever gave up with the notion that they would be destroyed, and no one really cares about the deaths of millions of other people as long as they live half way across the world, just like they don't care about the death of their next door neighbor as long as they die half way around the world.
Today in the news there was a story about Burma and how the government there is committing human rights violations. Well o' gee we are sure sorry about that but no one cares. Burma is half way around the world and the death of a few million people will simply work to our advantage because that will be that many more people not fighting at the gas pumps ten years from now. I have no idea how people can be so cold-blooded.
In light of all the money we are throwing down the toilet bowl that is IRAQ, NASA is currently getting ready to send a satellite out into deep space to study an asteroid. An asteroid. What is wrong with this picture? Nothing? No, no, no... why the hell do we send unmanned robotic pieces of metal out into space to take pictures of rocks. We can't get samples of them, we can't bring any back, we can't really even understand what we are seeing. I say we pull in all the money NASA is wasting and send a man to MARS. WE could do it in about 5 years if we really tried.
Then again we really do need a new source of fuel for our endeavor to the red planet. That source of fuel will come from the oil companies once they realize that petroleum is going to run out. That will be in about 50-100 years from now... so none of the CEOs have anything to worry about, they will all be dead and it will be their grandkids who will have to deal with the biggest energy crisis the world has ever seen. I bet they get a laugh out of that. EXXON recorded record profits last year. Record profits. No shit! The price of gas is fucking out of control. they say they cannot do anything about it. My ass. EXXON was asked at the press conference where they announced record profits, if they were going to invest any of the money into researching alternative fuels. do you know what they said???? NO, they will reinvest the money into finding more petroleum!!! What the fuck is wrong with these people??? Have all the money in the world, then you have what???
There is no honesty in the world today. We are a people of self-interested, self-serving, selfish, blind, dishonest, uncaring, materialistic, conniving, greedy, little pieces of shit. I can't help wondering how kind, caring, honest people make it to old age. We as Americans are inundated from birth about truth, justice, and the American way. Be good to one another, treat each other as we would want to be treated, lend a helping hand when someone is down... these are all values that we as a society claim we cherish and foster but we do not. Few people have caring for anything but whats theirs. I go to the convenience store everday. Everyday I hold to door open for some, whether I'm on my way out or my way in, almost never do I get a thank you. It just rarely happens. For some reason people don't care about being polite. This pisses me off.
Ever pick someone up who is obviously in need of a ride? Ever offer to buy someone lunch when it's obvious they are hungry and have no money? Ever sit and talk to someone who is lonely? Ever tell a complete stranger that they have made your day better? Ever tried to do something for someone you really can't stand?
Of course not. That's not who we are. We pretend to be, but were not.
An old friend of mine spoke to me honestly and passionately about a decision that I did not agree with. Yet, after long thought and even longer conversation I realized it was the right one and I felt better because of it. An unusual amount of clarity has been hovering over me all day. I feel great and I accomplished more than expected. All in all it has been a very good day.
This is a very good black and white horror film from 1963 that is based on, and very faithfully portrays, the Richard Matheson book I Am Legend.
I bring it up because later this year a new film version of the book is being released with Will Smith playing the main role. I don't have high hopes that the new version will be faithful to the source material but I may still be surprised by a good film. The Last Man on Earth on the other hand is very faithful and whole lot of fun. Slow to start and a little on the shallow side it still portrays a grim world where every living person is dying of an unknown plague. I highly recommend this film.

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